Anyway, since my lovely friend made a nice remark to me and I was unable to respond because the thread was closed:
Listen here buddy, go doubt yourself all you want...but don't act like everyone else is in your same boat.
I'm not "underestimating the hardness of the scene", I know how hard it is to be a top-level professional in anything. That's why they are called professionals, because only the elite of the elite can do it.
You know nothing about me, or who I am. Maybe you shouldn't be so quick to pass judgement on people.
I don't really need the money at this point, but I'm looking forward to the challenge.